My bestie was diagnosed in November. Since then the cancer has spread to 3 other organs. She's now palliative care. We're very close and she's being very honest with me, which I'm so glad about. I've tried to remain strong for her. I admire her bravery so much. Now that she's palliative, I can't stop crying. It's like I'm grieving for her before end of life. I keep thinking, "we can do xx together", then realise we can't. It's so hard. Then I feel guilty, cos obviously it's a lot worse for her.
