Can't stop crying

Hi Jacquie456 welcome to the forum though I am so very sorry to read of your friends situation.. You are grieving for her as you want to plan as you always did but then recognise that's not going to happen. It's OK to feel like that and perfectly normal as the bond that you have seems very very strong. The fact that she has you is a godsend I'm sure and you are also someone she can be honest with. Some people go through a whole lifetime and never get to experience such a bond or someone to be totally honest with and no judgement from..I don't know what to say to help make any of this any better except to say I'm glad your friend has you by her side. Thinking of you all Gail x

Hi Jacqui

I am so sorry to hear your sad news and how this diagnosis has affected you let alone your precious friend.

You are experiencing what is known as ‘anticipatory grief’ - a state of deep, painful sorrow that occurs before an impending loss. It is also sometimes described as a "rollercoaster" because you can shift back and forth between feelings of distress for several days and feelings of normalcy for several days.

I only know this as my husband was diagnosed with S4 pancrestic cancer and after his 13 palliative chemo session I was regularly crying and confused at my constant waves of emotion and went to speak to our MacMillan nurse. 

it is so positive that you have come onto the MacMillan site as it is important that you look after yourself in order to be strong & there for your friend. She is lucky to have you. 

take care x