Hi everyone, I don't know where to start as there is so much going on and I just need support. I'll break it down bluntly.
I was married 22 years but my husband was abusing me and I finally got free and he was removed from the house, once he was out I found out my mother in law had brain cancer, she also abused me due to believing her son but she was kind to me for all them other years so I felt down to help her. For months I was the one visiting her on hospice and care home. That last week was hell and I don't think I'll ever recover, the nurse told me to go get a rest and that is when she passed. I didn't find out until the next day by my abuser abusing me yet again. I was barred from funeral and they put funeral flowers on my doorstep. I have been diagnosed severe c-ptsd and struggle. I have my children with me. I'm sure I tried my best with my mother in law considering I was traumatised by her son and her, it was almost special. I'd paint her nails and take funny selfies with her. My family didn't understand but I just felt I had to help her leave earth feeling loved and to go in peace. She passed away at Christmas. Since then my husband is abusing us all time, he wants us out the house. So I'm under huge stress, the house is all done up with every security you can think of to stop him getting in. Police and lawyers and social workers are involved and helping. 4 days ago my dad went to hospital with tummy pain and has been diagnosed with cancer in tummy lining and diaphragm and yesterday we was told he has weeks left. He is a good dad but there is very abusive behaviour there too and I'm so conflicted and feel like someone somewhere hates me. I'm worried about my mum and how she will be when he's gone. I'm here now cos night time are worse for me coping with the abuse but now this on top and I'm just breaking. If you read this far, thank you
