Two weeks ago today, I spoke with the doctors and it was thought Rebecca only had days left with us. Since then it’s been taking everything a day at a time, we had further conversations yesterday and they have been surprised at how strong she has been and that this was not expected. I’m surprised too, I know Rebecca wants to be at peace now she’s been able to communicate that to me over the past 4 weeks.
I don’t want her to go, but it is time and has been for a while now, she is just existing and that isn’t anything she would want and nor would I. It’s just I want her here with me and it breaks my heart that this is so real and so close now.
Our daughters birthday is next week and it’s been suggested we bring that forward which we are doing today, although Rebecca will likely be asleep the 3 of us can just spend that time together, with some cake and some presents. I hadn’t thought of that before, mainly because I was not expecting her to still be with us and I thought they’d be a bit of a separation between the two events, but now they are likely to be so very close together, that I am increasingly concerned by that.
please if you read this, can you hold Rebecca in your thoughts for a moment as she comes to her final days.
Thank you .
