Morning all, hope you are all keeping well.
Had an appointment with my Oncologist yesterday, he authorised another 9 chemo's. But I haven't yet had a scan to see what effect the first round of chemo has had. He said on the basis of questions he's asked me, my responses and the look of the area concerned is a clear indicator that the chemo has had some effect on the tumour. This is positive news right? But still I am mentally unable to accept it and remain pessimistic to safeguard myself. I believe this is because I have no faith and went through such a bad rollercoaster time when they were trying to find a diagnosis. I mean amongst other mishaps they completed a scan and advised me it wasn't cancer I had a bleed. Yeah right, I actually had a 15 cm tumour, how the hells bells do you miss that on a scan huh!! Now when they give me positive news, I struggle to accept it as I'm so scared they'll give me hope but then only take it away again down the line. Does anybody else feel this way?
Food shopping today and I think a cream cake is in order! Hope you all enjoy your day whatever it is you may be doing.
Thank you eddie, yes I'm looking forward to some sea air and lovely strolls. We shall be up and on it and on route very soon and we have beautiful sunshine. I hope your family dinner went well and I hope your family are all well too. Such a shame you couldn't have any pahhhh. Diets ughhhh!!!! You're right about me in scarborough, one of the things i love when on holiday is the food, pub lunches and fish and chips. I will still think of you and your forticreme mind lol Bedrail was the right one this time yes, hooorah they got it right. What plans have you for today? Whatever you may be doing take care and enjoy. I shall no doubt update you soon with my adventures in scarborough X
Have a fab time, you both really deserve it, watch out for the gulls, they like fish and chips too, family are great thank you, though they had no sympathy for me not being allowed to eat normal food LOL, though Friday I can eat what i like yippee. I have "grand" opening of identity and loss exhibition, sounds a lot grander than it really is. but will, along with the guys who did the course do all we can to see others get a chance to do it, and will be taking lots of photo's as well, looking forward to hearing your holiday adventures, but not too much about all the fab food you've had, have a little sympathy. take care, both of you.
Eddie xx
Hi Marie, Isn't it a pity they couldn't deliver couch & bed on same day but that is the way things usually happen! At least they got delivered, I hope! Yes the District Nurses are a real treasure and so caring, glad you had a good visit!! I used to love a walk in the Bluebell woods! Good for you!
Love Annette x
Thanks Annette, definitely not complaining but lately, personally, more good news than bad, just wish a couple of my friends could have had some too, heard the sun came out for you today and you couldn't get Vince out of the sweet shop, enjoy your swim.
Eddie xx
Hi, Yes talk about a kid in a sweet shop! He is worse! He came out with Dolly Mixtures, Jelly Babies, butter fudge & Italian Creams! Then told the lady he'd be back on Thursday before we leave!,
It rained in the morning then cleared to be a beautiful day! Wednesday & Thursday to be the same!! Not what they forecast last week. Someone must have told them we were coming!! Swim great, had the pool to ourselves!
Si it will be a new thread tomorrow!
Love Annette x
Morning Annette, good to hear your having a great time, Regarding sweets never buy any except when i go to Scotland, I stop at the green welly gift shop in Tyndrum for macaroon bars and usually buy a couple of boxes. PS you can't buy them down here, so on my way to Fort William at the weekend will be stocking up. We are on the pessimistic and no faith thread, but i know you mean Ellie's chit chat, Annette how long has the chit chat thread been going and please don't say a month LOL. have a wonderful day.
love Eddie xx
Hi Eddie, Yes there are lots of things you can buy here you can't get anywhere else, so you are right to stock up when you can! Or if you have relatives here, just drop strong hints before your birthday etc how much you like them!!
the Chit Chat thread has been going for years and years but I can't remember how many! There was another thread that used to be popular too where people had to think of 3 (or more) positive things that happened daily, so it reminded you the day wasn't as bad as you thought! It seemed to stop a while ago! Ellie may remember! Good to hear your scan is booked, good luck!
Well home today but it's been great!
Sorry for delay, I almost missed this post as no notification for it!
Love Annette x
Morning Annette, so happy you have had a great time. Time to plan the next one, though you probably already have, Another thing you can't buy down here is tablet, a crumbly fudge, I used to help my Nan make all the time, only 4 ingredients but can i make it NO, though have been told many supermarkets in Scotland sell it now, My brain scan is for acquired aphantasia, had it about 5 months but i never had an event to trigger it which is extremely unusual, and my cognitive psychologist, I have 2 psychologists, want's to try and find out why, who knows i may get a medical condition named after me, PS it is not treatable but you do learn to live with it, Will ask Ellie about chit chat, have a safe journey home.
love Eddie xx
Good morning Eddie and hope I find you well. Back home now booooohoooooo! Because I am at hospital this afternoon for bloods, picc line dressing changed and appointment with oncology just to discuss starting that chemo next tuesday. I have to say i have not missed the hospital at all and im a little grumpy at having to go this afternoon but its for a good cause so i will go and get job done. Break away was fab, accommodation was lovely, went to scarborough, up on to the yorkshire moors, goathland, thornton le dale, pickering, went to whitby and staithes and runswick bay. It was all so fab and we had beautiful sunshine. Had a really great time and sad to be home. But hopefully if im not too ill on chemo we shall book another break away somewhere soon. I hope your grand opening went well, sounds awesome. Hope all is well with you, what news have you?
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