Hi All, it’s 2.30am and I find myself awake and thoughtful.
I had latest CT scan 2nd March with view to discussing results with oncologist on 29th March but he bought appt. forward to 11th and isn’t 100% happy with Liver so sending me for MRI this Thurs.
I’m on Ibrance/Letrezole/Zometa for METS lymph nodes/Bones/Liver but those Zometa treatments have gone from every 4 to 5 weeks because bloods struggling to keep above 1 on neutrophils.
I guess I’m not totally surprised, every 3 month scan hope for best & prepare for worst especiallly if feeling more off/achey than usual, and I realise I don’t know what’s what till I get MRI scan results but I do feel anxious, I keep telling myself I’ve been blessed as I was diagnosed back end of 2014 and here I am 2021 but still despite fabulous hubby & family & good friends it’s hard to express how scared I am.....
It’s just me being unfit then lol 
, I think of my dad and know he would struggle but he has a lot of issues going on with lungs, not sure I’m much better!! perhaps meditation is what I need to do myself! Respect to you. Indeed that’s so true I don’t think we ever feel older do we.
Dear Remoh,aww thanks for your support funny you should say that my sister in law asked me if I kept my eyes closed and I realised that I had for a lot of it! As you say whatever gets you through eh! Yes mine was just over hour and I was shattered but it was good to get a better night sleep lol There’s always a silver lining
same to you and all the lovely people on here, may we all be blessed with minimal pain & maximum time
Norbert haha perhaps that’s what I need to practice 
Dear Norberry, haha that did make me chuckle - I had to open my eyes to drive home but I absolutely no what you mean - I did wake up that night with a start and had a moment! Have a Lovely Weekend. 
