Hi All
After chasing for a week I finally got my lung scan results and I still have some clots in my lungs 3 months after they were diagnosed despite my blood thinners. Once they have gone I can have VATS excision of one of my lung nodules so now I have to wait for a rescan in another 3 months and try again, otherwise they will go for cyberknife or ablation but the team feel I will get the best results (and pathology) from surgery.
One of the many things that I hate about cancer is the constant waiting. I am an impatient sort of person and all I do is wait for tests, treatment, scans, chemo, operations and referrals. I know that it beats the alternative and I am lucky to have treatment but why can't it ever go smoothly for once. I get all psyched up for ops etc and then more delays. I don't have endless time left to me and I am damned well waiting yet again. I just want to rage at someone/something and yet there is no one. I wonder if you can rent a padded soundproof room by the hour so I can let some of it out.
After they have done this lung, they intend to do a much bigger open op on the other one which currently has five more nodules (does the fun never end?) Obviously in the mean time the cancer slowly grows and spreads. I just hope I remain operable. Anyway that is it folks, some gratuitous winging because I don't want to inflict it on the family.
And to all you others out there waiting as well, for whatever - good luck. If anything drove me to drink, it would be this awful WAITING.
