Hi all , I’m new to this so please bare with me , so I was diagnosed with stage 2b HER 2 negative breat cancer in September last year , long story short , here I am 3 ops , 6 months of chemotherapy and 15 rounds of radiation therapy later , but as it had gone to my lymph nodes they won’t say I’m cancer free but I think I’m out of the woods now, so it make’s absolutely no sense that I feel worse than ever !! , for the last year all I did was count down every appointment/ treatment excited for the day it was finally done, and obviously I don’t miss the ops and the horrible side effects of chemotherapy, and the burns from radiation, I guess I just feel a little lost I genuinely do not know what to think or feel at the moment. And I hate that I’m not able to feel excited and happy , but the more people I chat with, it becomes more and more clear this is a completely normal reaction , cancer diagnosis and everything that comes with it is traumatic and life changing , so to all my fellow warriors give yourselfs a break xxx
Hi Anna m welcome to the forum..I'm glad that people have been able to reassure you that how you are feeling and what you are feeling is perfectly normal. I wonder if you felt able to, if you haven't already, read a paper by a psychologist named Dr Peter Harvey entitled "After the Treatment finishes"-"what next". It is really good and and will explain all that you are feeling . Xxxx
gail
Hi Anna m and a second welcome to this little corner of the community.
Do make a cuppa and have a look at this great paper After Treatment Finishes - Then What? by Dr Peter Harvey that my friend Gail GRANNY59 has highlighted.
As it highlights the post treatment milestones that need to be navigated.
Thankyou for taking the time to reply , really appreciate it and I will definitely look at the paper you recommended, sending love 
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Thanks for sharing, sometimes the hardest part of this journey is just feeling like someone understands, so I really wish you well with your future treatment, and always here if you need a chat , god luck my lovely ️x
