Morning everyone I’m finding it hard to move on, get back to normal? What ever that is? I was diagnosed with lung cancer the 18th of December 2022 had radiotherapy in March 2023 had scan in June and got the all clear, I’ve had cancer 3 times ( women’s problem down below, breast cancer and lung cancer) and I’ve received treatment and always been given the all clear. But I can’t move forward and I don’t know why? I’ve lost my identity that’s how I feel I feel cancer has totally destroyed me I feel like as if I’m hanging on to it? I feel as if I won’t let it go? It’s as if I’m keeping it alive? I don’t understand. My lung cancer and treatment has made my copd and emphysema much worse I feel I’m in automatic pilot, smiling at everyone because that’s what you do, but underneath I’m screaming and I can’t understand why? I think I’m cracking up I think I’m going crazy I’ve had depression and anxiety all my life I went to my doctors 3 weeks ago as my mental health is suffering, doctor changed my medication so I’ve only been on new medication for my mental health for 3 weeks, I’m convinced my cancer will come back it’s just a question of when and where ? I can’t move forward I’ve lost ME? I just want energy, to be full of life and happiness again and I feel so guilty for feeling like this when there’s loads of poor people with cancer who are suffering and I know they would give anything to have my results to be in my position so why can’t I feel brilliant love Yvonne take care everyone xx
Hi Yvonne17 I left your post to see if some of the group members would pick up on it…….as I did not want to jump straight in.
But we’ll done you in getting in contact with our services…… moving on with life actually takes ‘us’ to take the first steps so good that you were rewarded with some helpful information.
Have you access locally to in person meetings……… like a local-ish Maggie's Centre as these folks are amazing or check this link for any Local Macmillan Support in your area as there is nothing better sitting with a cup of brew and having chat……. but this group is always here as a second best ((hugs))
