Hi,
I’m now almost 7 weeks post surgery for endometrial cancer and still have very difficult days. From diagnosis to surgery it was really quick, so I didn’t get much time to come to terms with the thought of having cancer. Although I’m physically getting stronger, I’ve had a few setbacks, where I think I’m not doing as good as I should be. Every little twinge I have a panic that something is wrong, or I’ve overdone things.
Mentally I feel scared quite a lot, not sure if it’s all due to lockdown and not getting back to normality, or if it’s due to the surgery. I’ve never been a particularly depressed person, and always managed to see the positive in each day, but not now.
I know at some point I’ll need to return to my job, but just can’t see that happening yet. My manager is supportive, but I feel so guilty that after 7 weeks I’m still no closer to being ready to return.
can anyone advise me of any online resources that may help me to cope better?
thank you Andi x
Hi Andi NewbieAndi and welcome across to this little corner of the Community. I see you have already connected in on some of the other areas of the Community - well done.
7 weeks out from cancer treatment/surgery is no time in the big picture of the post treatment recovery.
I have been on my cancer journey for over 21 years now. I am in remission but no cure for me will be available but I think I have been able to get into the position of being able to live with my cancers rather than being defined by it.
You may find it helpful to make a cuppa and have a look at this great paper After Treatment Finishes - Then What? by Dr Peter Harvey.
Have a read and get back to us with your first thoughts about what it said to you.
Hi Anbi, yes I can totally understand the challenges around getting your head into gear to move life forward.
I have had multiple relapses over my years so got used to getting bad news and having to pick the remnants up and move on but I am now over 4 years into remission from a condition, that in 1999 I was told was incurable, yes treatable but would never be in remission...... so I am living the dream especially as if the final set of treatment did it work my clock would have ran out 5+ years ago.
Just this afternoon I was on a monthly Maggie’s Centre Haematology Zoom Support Group. It’s great sitting talking to others who have walked the walk as it helps unpack the rucksack of stuff we all collect during our cancer journeys. It’s good to empty the ‘stuff’ on the floor and decide what I won’t pick up again.
Maggie’s Centres are great and provide some great support, they are open for private one on one support both in the centres and on zoom and their group sessions have also moved onto online video support groups - worth a check out.
Hi andi, it's a horrible feeling that you just can't shake, I totally understand 
my journey was a very quick one, discovered a new mole in Dec last year, seen a few Dr's, delays with covid etc, the mole eventually came off in May, found out in June it was melanoma, had further surgery, then July it was gone, those 6 months were just a living hell. And as much as I rejoiced in the good news, I feel I'm still stuck in that fear. I am still living like I've been given a death sentence, the Dr's are sick listening to me now I'm sure about every lump bump and fear. I hope this feeling changes. And I hope it does for you too. Xx
God I really hope so 
sooner rather than later, I feel like I'm wasting my life away with worry, and it's really making mw angry now. And with covid and homeschooling with a toddler and single parenting it's tough xx
Same here lol am sure we will get threw it and this home schooling 
one day we will look back as a distance memory and see how strong we was xxx
