Hi and welcome to the Online Community, although I am sorry to see you finding us.
Well done getting through these 5 years but I can’t help you in any way 
but let’s see if their are some folks that can help you out, can I also highlight our very supportive Breast cancer and BRCA Positive Groups.
Posting in this groups will open up your concerns to a wider group of people who know exactly what you are going through at the moment.
Follow the links I've created, join the group then introduce yourself to the group and post questions after selecting 'start a discussion' and you can also join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
You may want to put some information in your profile as this can help a lot. Click here to see how to add details as this helps everyone to see a little about you and how best to reply to you.
All the very best and ((hugs)) from a distance.
