PTSD. I have just had my third major surgery and so traumatized my counselor says it is PTSD and living with cancer which the surgeon says has been removed. He said last year he had removed the cancer and cured me !! The year before I had the colon removed a different hospital.
since a terminal diagnosis in 2017 of Colon Cancer which metastases to my Liver i have had about 20 weeks where I have not been On chemotherapy and the reason for that would be hospital stays and 3 surgeries. Each time I suffer really very badly from the pain relief drugs ,it is horrendous. I agreed to this recent surgery after a discussion with the pain management and agreed to an epidural.
I was the worst i have ever been, with constant hallucinations , not knowing where I was , and fear, it was extremely difficult and scary. The first and second time of surgery was difficult and persuade the pain relief would be managed i continued, I asked if it is likely (I believe the statistics are about 5 years clear)
What happens the answer is the same as the last 3years. Chemotherapy and surgery.
I can't go through the effects of the drugs again i still feel anxious and get palpitations thinking about it all.it is down as 'Cameron's my notes. I also feel embarrassed and let down.
So my life after cancer is 'anxious ' and I feel utterly lost
Ps my first experience with cancer was aged 7 childhood Leukaemia and I have been to appointment at the same hospital each year since and still do now for checks and require d treatment. That's 42 years.
