hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
hope you and josie managed to get some more sleep.
how great about your tickets arriving for the eve of your mums anniversary it has to be a good omen (i hope so), please let us know.
it is great to hear the different things people believe in isnt it?
at the moment this all helps me and sounds like it does you and jayne as well, and as you say as long as it helps get through this bad time thats all that matters isnt it? i cant see that it can be fake as how can they research peoples details beforehand, and when i went to the church noone even knows me or my name or where i live, but in saying that there def are some charlatans out there so you have to be careful dont you?
have a good day amanda, speak soon, lots of love karen xxx
Hope you’re feeling ok, you do sound as if you are feeling a little brighter since the beginning of the week?
I can quite understand why you’re not too bothered about the job, but maybe that’s the best attitude to have.Then if it happens fine, if not well that’s ok too – is your husband keen on you getting a job?Do you think you will go for an interview this time or wait and see how you feel?
The WAGs are all the players Wives And Girlfriends!I think they got that title during the World Cup when all they did was sip coffee (or wine!) and spend money – sounds good eh!The only problem we have is that we have not got the husbands earning the fantastic salaries!!Still we can pretend…….
It sounds as if you do have a great spiritual belief and you have really had some lovely experiences, these must be very special and quite reassuring.I wish I could say that something like that has happened to me but not as yet , however, I do enjoy reading about other people’s experiences and as you say maybe the time just has not been right for me yet.Actually my parents are probably still on holiday in Tenerife!That was their favourite place and they always wanted to retire there so they’re probably still catching up with each other!
Thanks for the calendar bit for February, it’s lovely and it sounds brighter – perhaps because it is coming up to Spring time!
Good to see you and I hope you're feeling a bit brighter. Fascinating about the tickets, it sounds as if somebody really does want you to go and they're doing all they can to get you there. Sometimes it's all just too much of a coincidence, I think that about me being here, there was a whole cascade of events that led me here and without them all being in place at that time it just woudl not have happened. If I take a step back and look at that, I would have to say that it was all meant to happen - much like your scenario! I suppose we'll have to wait and see and you'll have to let us know, it will, I imagine be quite difficult not to have expectations especially as it is going to be such a sensitive time.
I would never think that these people are not genuine, I think they all have their beliefs and I agree for everything to just end at the end of life, would just not make sense. I have questioned morality and the meaning of life so much since my parents died, I am generally I think the type of person who does need a rationale for everything and so far I can think of no reason at all that so many people have to suffer so much and die so young. One of the boys in my son's class has cancer and they were told yesterday she is dying. She's only 35 and so lovely - she has the same cancer as my husband had so he has spent quite a bit of time talking with her. However, sadly her treatment has not worked and she is very sick, So what's that all about - how can we rationalise that- as my son said "it's just not fair"!. So I'm sure there must be a master plan - I'm just not sure what it is!
How are you feeling today? Has it been a good week overall do you think? It looks and sounds as if you are a bit brighter but i know that it just depends on the day and the time and that what happens. For no reason at all in the car this morning when Snow Patrol came on I just could not stop crying! I know we have said before that is such an emotive song and I could' nt help myself. So had to pull myself together and get on with work and I'm ok now but i wonder what brought that on!
The sun is shining now and I hope that we can all have a good weekend! Any plans? I know football is on and after this week's good result we're very optimistic in my household!
How are you feeling after this week?I hope that last night you managed an early night – after a big supper!! What are your weekend plans – if any?I bet you’re ready for the weekend break and it sounds as if it’s going to be lovely and sunny so hopefully the sun will shine on you whilst you’re at the cemetery.
I hope you really don’t feel foolish at all – we need to be able to explain how we feel and that is why we’re all here.You are very hard on yourself Louise and really there’s no need.It’s so good that there is someone to talk to just when you need to (rather than waiting to see someone) and normally there will be one of us at least.I think we can all identify with what you’re saying and in many ways this is where we feel most at ease when we’re talking about how we feel.
I think that your mum and dad will know very well how you are feeling and why and perhaps in their own way, they may be encouraging you to come here and spend time with us (I’d like to think so!).
As I mentioned to Karen, I did’nt have the best start to the day – just listening to the radio and then down the tears came!Could hardly see to drive, quite unexpected and yet I know that whilst in the car I am always thinking about my mum and how much I miss not being able to talk to her and I can never see that changing!I just need to accept that and be more prepared!!
So not long now until half term is it- just another couple of weeks for us, is that the same for you?Hope to see you soon!
How are you today?Yes I feel better than I did on Monday, maybe because the suns out today.
Yes my husband does want me to go back to work, although he hasn’t pushed me.Yes if I get an interview I feel that I must go this time, otherwise I’d be just wasting peoples time and that’s not fair really is it.But the post came earlier and no reply, so I might get away with it, hee hee.
WAGs, oh yes definitely, I like the idea of sitting about sipping wine and spending money, but as you say, shame about the salaries.
Susan I love the idea that your Mum and Dad are still on holiday in Tenerife, I hope they are, that would be lovely.I’m not sure where mine would be because they used to travel all over the place, but more than likely they are probably in Hawaii.They went a few times and just before my Dad lost his eye site and speech, he managed to ask ‘where do pineapples grow’, when I told him Hawaii, I asked him if that was where he was going and he said ‘yes’.Bless him.So I hope they’re on Waikiki Beach.
Well, Friday AGAIN, where do the weeks go?I’m off to the dentist again today, to have a tooth pulled out.Not looking forward to it.Although I’ve been having trouble with it for ages on and off.But it should have come out last June 14th, but the same day Mum was having a new front window fitted, and at that time she was in hospital, so I cancelled the dentist and waited for the window people. (seemed like a better option at the time).Oh well, look on the bright side, its an excuse to have a few whiskys tonight!
How are you? i hope you're ok today. Did you get any more sleep last night? Do you have anything planned for the weekend? I think the weather is going to be ok. (Although the forecasts vary so much from different parts of the country don't they). I'd love to be able to come and walk along that beach with you and Benji, does it get busy in the summer time? I've only been to Scotland once, when my pap died i went with my nan to visit her brother in Perth. I was only about 7, but remember the scenery was beautiful.
I hope you have a good day, speak later, love jayne xxx
Susan, I've just read your post to Karen. I'm sorry you got upset this morning, are you ok now? Its horrible isnt it when you hear a song or see something that starts you off again. I dont think these feelings are ever going to go away do you? I hope you feel better and get through the day alright. love jayne xxx
Sorry, I had to rush out earlier, and only just read about the lady who has cancer.That’s so sad, and only 35.Why does this happen to people, and always the best people?What a lovely husband you have, to share his time and experiences with her.Both you and your husband are worth more than your weight in gold, always there for whoever needs them, what lovely kind people you are.‘Special’ people.Your son’s right, it isn’t fair.Its never fair is it, when you think that there are some horrible people in this world and probably go through life never experiencing anything bad, and its always the best people that have to take all the crap that life throws at them.
I hope you had a good day today and you feel better after this morning.Its ok to cry when we feel like it though isn’t it.It just shows that we’re human and have feelings.
