hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
great to see you here, i know life is very hard for you at the moment and you are feeling a lot of different emotions, but you are doing so well looking after your mum and she must be so proud of you!!
it is the worst thing when your parent is so ill and you dont know how long you have left with them, but you have to try and stay strong for your mum sharon, i know how hard it is though, and my heart goes out to you.
just keep coming here and sharing your thoughts and we will try and help you as we know what its like. you have been a tower of strength for your mum, can you talk to any of the macmillan nurses or anybody else who is coming round? we had a lovely nurse who we used to speak to and tell him how we were feeling, it does help a little to get it off your chest.
please remember sharon we are all here for you and i think you are amazing what your doing for your mum, it is the toughest job in the world.
please take care of yourself, and come and talk very soon, lots of love and a great big hug, karen xxx
Well that’s your week almost over. It sounds as if it was quite hard for you. Work keeps your mind occupied, doesn’t it? I’m glad you took some time off though- just to recharge your batteries.
That house looks wonderful. I hope you didn’t mind me having a peek. For some reason I thought it was an older one. What a price for property down your way though. I think I would expect a castle for that amount up here, although prices are going up and up here too. I just stay in a 2 bedroomed semi and I can’t believe what they are going for just now. We made an incredible amount on Mum and Dad’s. It’s just getting ridiculous, isn’t it?
Are you going to stick with the driving instructor then? I suppose if she’s got a good record, you can maybe just shut your ears!! I sat my test in a little market town when I was 17. At that time there were no traffic lights or roundabouts there. I did stall the car though when the lollipop man decided to walk out into the road just as I was approaching. However, I was told that because I kept the car under control it was fine.
were only going away for 4 days but like you i am apprehensive about it, i keep thinking say i still feel terrible it will spoil it for everyone, and whats the use in going when i cant tell my mum all about it etc., it is very hard going anywhere or doing anything isnt it?
i have been to the cemetery this morning it is so peaceful there and the grave looks beautiful especially in the sunshine. like you i feel some comfort up there with mum and dad, strange really i know there not there but to me its a place to remember them vivdly, mum used to come with us to put flowers there for dad and for her mum and dad etc.,
i have to go back to doctors in 4 weeks time to see if pills have made a difference, i hope so even if it takes the edge off a little, i feel such a coward for having to take them though, all what my mum and dad went through why cant i deal with this on my own?
i will try the banana tonight, are you? we can let each other know tomorrow if it worked. the sleep issue is bad isnt it?
speak soon louise, have a good day, lots of love and hugs karen xxx
Sorry I didn’t get back before you disappeared on your adventures. Whichever mountain you are on top of in the world, I hope you are having a fantastic time. Just chill out. Jonathan will be having a great time too and you’ll see him again before you know it.
I don’t suppose you’ll see this but I’m thinking of you.
still dont feel good, but at least the sun is shining.
i took my flowers to the cemetery it is so peaceful there and the sun shining made it look beautiful, i feel some comfort there with mum and dad even though i know there not there, its strange really.
what are you doing today? i am apprehensive about going away, even for 4 days, i worry because i know how im feeling at the moment, and dont want to make my sister feel any worse than she already does, hopefully being together will make us feel a bit better.
danny has been watching a programme on people going back in time, he was going on about it and i got upset and said i want to go back in time as well danny, and he said so do i so i can see nan and grandad again, so that upset me, if only eh jayne, even just for 5 minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hope your knee and back is a bit better, hope you have a good weekend,
