hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
I take it you are on the same type of tablets as me. I hate taking them too. If they help though,it's not going to be for ever,is it?-I've been on them since before Mum died though. I'm not sure if they are helping now. i think they sometimes have to change the type or doze after a while as they become less effective. Don't tell me if you don't want to but what are you taking? it would be interesting to know. ( Sorry Karen, I shouldn't have asked that, ignore me)
I'm sorry you don’t feel so good again, it will all get better soon, I'm sure it will.I must sometimes seem so heartless by just carrying on as normal, but I assure you, I DO cry a lot.Its just that my Mum told me to just carry on, and that’s all I'm doing, I'm doing it for my Mum.It is hard, but she would be sad to see me crying, and after I've had a good cry, I always always apologise to her.I feel guilty for crying, I feel guilty for being happy, we can't win can we??
It sounds lovely where you go Karen, peaceful is nice, it makes you feel good doesn’t it?I'm sure when you go away things will be different.You just go with the flow and feel whatever you feel.Don’t feel apprehensive about going away, your Mum and Dad will be there and will be sharing the happy times with you, and remember, your sister is more than likely feeling exactly the same about you.You're probably tip toeing around each other, so be open about it, and above all, have a good time.Your Mum and Dad would want you to.
Oh Karen, if only we could all go back in time.But I wouldn’t want to see my Mum or Dad go through what they went through.It would be great to go back and change things, but all these things that have happened to us just makes us stronger people and is just preparing us for better things to come.Your Danny sounds such a caring boy, you're very lucky to have your lovely boys.I sometimes think I've missed out on not having children.
I’ll be here for the rest of the afternoon, if you want to talk.Hope you're having a good day, love jayne xxx
I'm off to get something to eat now and let my hubby have a 'few minutes on the computer' !!! If i dont get back later, have a good evening, see you tomorrow. love jayne xxx
Hi Everyone- just posted a really long message-then lost it all!!!! GRRR!!!
Shopping all done now until weds! I love supermarkets! can't keep away from them!!
Jayne- i am so pleased that your brother popped in to see you.It was hard to think that you could have done anything to upset them,and reassuring to know that you haven't.All that worry for nothing then.Typicall!!!
Karen- forecast for next week is good so we have to hope that it carries through to the next week as well.Please dont worry that you are currently on medication.You and Louise have been through such a lot, and if there is something that can help make things a little easier than thats a good thing.I hope that you will start to feel some benefit from it soon,although i believe that it can take 4-6 weeks. I'm sure rthat the break with your sister will be good for all of you.I wish that i could say the same about my hol with dad! the one good thing is that hubby will be returning home as he cant have too long off work, so i wont have dad telling the boys that they can do something, hubby telling them that they can't,and the two grown ups falling out!!! with hubby removed some of the stress will go,and hopefully i will be able to adopt a calmer approach and suggest some sort of compromise to resolve issues. where as the two men certainly wouldn't.Oh boy, i am so not looking forward to this holiday!!!!
Louise- the umbrella plant is doing well thanks, although i shal;l have to move it somewhere else for when we're away.It likes a lot of light,but not direct sunlight,so at the moment i pull the curtains across in front of it during the mornings, and pull them back once the sun has moved.Clearly i wont be able to do that whilst i'm not here, and i cant expect hubby to do it for me.The finer points of houseplant husbandry elude him totally!!! I shall have to find a suitable light spot,away from the sun.Mum would be so chuffed to be causing me problems!! her favourite saying had to be "I don't want to be any trouble......" and she would then proceed to bend over backwards to be as much trouble as possible,bless her!!!! The boys and i also have a fern each that has her ashes around the bottom and they're doing well too. I still have some ashes left and i must buy a suitable container to place them in.At the moment they are in a disposable chinese take away plastic container, which hardly affords them the respect that is deserved does it.???!!!!
I hope that you and Benji have enjoyed your walk today Louise.We would love a dog but hubby is mildly asthmatic.When we investigated Hypoallergenic dogs (those deemed suitable for asthmatics) he said it would totally destroy his street cred to be seen walking a poodle !! and other suitable breeds are just too big really.
Everyone is hungry and making mutterings about not having had tea yet! so i think i'd best get off and feed us all.I might be back later, but if not , best wishes to all of you and hope you all have relaxing days tomorrow. Bye for now,Marie XXXXX
I'm all on my own on here tonight!!!! bet you lot are all in front of your teles with your glasses of wine.Sounds like a good idea,might just go and do that myself!!!
My eldest was saying earlier that a load of year 8 kids from his school went off to Austria skiing for the week yesterday.Sounds like the resort is going to be full of pre-teenage kids on the rampage!! i trust that Susan has found a Child free spot for Her ski ing trip!!!!! Enjoy the rest of the weekend folks.See you another day.XXXXXX
Just back my walk and was thinking about you while we were bounding along the beach! Is your walk the Macmillan “Walk Wonders 2007”? I see it on the justgiving web site. You could get your sponsorship that way or you could create your own page if it’s not that event to make some money for a great cause. A girl I know used this site when she took part in the London marathon last year to make money for bowel cancer research after her mum was diagnosed. She said it’s a very secure site and looking at it just now, it seems quite simple to set up. I’ll be your first sponsor!
Hope you understand this ramble
Louise
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PS Just plucked up the courage to post my message of remembrance-funny how I found it such a hard thing to do. I did what they said, thinking it would end up along with yours but, of course, silly me created a new thread-never mind. I put a tiny bit for my dad too. I know he didn’t have cancer but they were always together and I couldn’t leave him out.
