Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hurry and catch up chickie teresa................lol i keep missing posts as well, only using one finger to type got fag in the other and cant put it down as ash goes all over the place............lol foggy just started a new thread...............have u seen it? xxxxxxxxxxxxx
shell thats the 1st time anyone said iv'e helped keep them same .............its usually insane..............men in white coats!!...............lol hope u feel bit better now, keep smiling babe and night night
Tereasa.i guess its a double edged sword,glad that shes gettin on with her life,in the face of adversity,but missen her at the same time, me thinks you,re goin to be a bottomless purse lol xx Mines a Tesco Chianti,nice bouquet,easy on the palate,easy on the purse and washes down well with a fag and god company lol xx
lol thanx karen hun. nite all xox teresa wil txt u 2moz hun, love to u and michaela, u 2 karen babes, and shezie, shell2 and anyone else xoxox wil let u no how i get on tuesday karen xox
Ooh pizza and garlic bread,am lickin me lips, i,ve poured another couple of glasses,can afford to b generous i always buy em in 6,s(you get 5% off lol) cheers xx
Night shelley,will b kickin asses with you tomorrow xx
You on your perch tonight Graeme,or you gone to roost? hope your bets paid off today you want a glass of vino? xx
