Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi Sheilley (soon to be happy bunny eh?) how's things? xxxxx
Hi Shezie, how's your day been? Neighbour's sister is a vet and the fox has been in their garden too so he's goin to ring the RSPCA as she also said that it's likely she's had cubs...she's not been around today though, hope you ok xx
Oh buddy awful, my step dad has flirted all day with DBs friend, kept thinking I was imagining it but I wasnt, I want to cry and I feel sick at the thought he was touching her leg whilst we were dineing then even kissed her on the lips when she bended over him,
We gave her a lift home and he then reversed right into her garage doors smashing them, felt like DB played a part in that
