Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
es the ghave said about me seeing a few to try and help me but i dont think anyone could help me if they tell me bad news monday i know i wanted my results quick bot now they told me to go monday instead of seeing him thursday i think something is wrong xxxx
You probably got headaches because of all the worry you been under, its hard coming on this site and not applying other peoples symptoms to yourself,but everyone different.
I still think you should talk to someone bout your fears
thank you shezie even though iv never meet you im so happy when your on you make me feel so much better love you for that your always there for me i think everyone that has cancer looks at the site and thinks oh my god im suffering with them symptoms my headaches at there all the time as soon as the come they go im just hopein and praying its not something the cant do anything about im i can cope with another op or chemo but not being told there is nothing they can do xxxx
not great at the min,just had chemo and having bad side effects he has been in bed from wed,cant hav anymore treatment for a while because his veins are wrecked with the chemo so like a lot of friends on this site we are on the waiting game,if he doesnt get anymore chemo i dont no what will happen,god help him and all of you ,will be thinking of you on monday and will say a prayer and lite a candle for you take care xxxx
hi guys if a wasnt workin ad be in bed second night on 2 down 2 to go .gave the tens a try for half an hour last night got a sleep this morning so not bad but were a need most a cant reach so its a 1 handed effort an a got a fright when a turned it up a little didnt think u could get such a shoke from a we battery hope u all well paul3melxxxxx
hi shezie how are u doing you holdin up . ye a good drink could have done with that the last shift a done was mental going to take some days am owed next week .flat nearly finished just flooring and hall to do an am set xxxx stay with elisa last two days though was very tired last week spent 2 days in flat after a mad week inwork
take care and good luck xxxxx
