Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Shell stay strong hun, "Wen ur at ur lowest and ready to give in grit ur teeth and start again remember u can win everyday that u wake up b determined in ur mind that u will enjoy life to the full i think that u will find each day is like a bonus and wot more could u ask god will lend a hand as well and help u with this task strength will come with each new day growin bit by bit i believe you can do it so just for me.................. .............dont quit"
Teresa you boasting you size 10 skinny!? i got me own parka its my dog walkin coat, got the who emblem on the back, how sad is that just listening to trench town rock Graeme xx
your very kind an thankyou put i dont think i can stay positive any more after my bowel cancer i got over that to be told i had an anyrusum then my kidney out cause of this dirty crap illness i live in fear everyday that it will be back everday thats what i think of the other day my friend called asked how i was told her how i was feeling then she told me to get the violin out an that i made her want to slit her wrists so i wont be sayin how i feel anymore xxxxx
Sorted then!! Holland 1st then Italy with Shezie, what do ya think to that? Fred Perry? didn't he used to play tennis and had trousers named after him as well...
I got doc martins too, used to wear them with my nurses uniform, (im mental health nurse,not general so have no better insight into this illness than anyone else,sadly)also DM boots also for dog walking, god i bet i look a site!!! Got to pounce on your swollen feet comment, what made them go down? were you on steroids?, just my dads biggest problem at mo is his swollen legs and feet, cant get shoes to fit him xx
