Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Shell ignore friends comments,not a friend who says things like that, but then again people at a loss as to wot to say sometimes . What you gonna do with yourself tomorrow,something nice? Then i gotta think of something nice to do for me xx
Not at all, why would I be embarassed? nothing wrong with that sexy Irish voice singing lol!! just wanted to say that Michaela's on prednisolone 30mg 3x a day while she's on chemo and although it doesn't make her legs swell up as she has muscle wastage and isn't very active it does make her arms, face and tummy swell xx
Dad was already on predisone,for his arthritis,they took him off these and put him on Dexamethasone, heres hoping they reduce them and the swelling will go down, despite everything else the swelling is his biggest handicap at mo xx
i dont think she is a very nice friend to be honest i coukd never talk to a friend that is copyin with an illness iv been very good to her and she has gone so cruel thankyou for being my friends xxxxxxxxxxxx
Have to say i do like the irish accent, but Westlife ,perleeeese! Was a bit worse for wear in pub one nite and talking to this equally p****d irish bloke ,and i told him "i love the irish brogue",he said "but im scottish" ! im crap with accents xx
Nothing wrong with a bit of westlife and supporting Man U!!... Graeme, Michaela was on Ondansetron and Ranitidine but took her off them last week and replaced them with Lansoprazole as the other 2 made her feel uncomfortable (hence a hospitalisation as she developed an infection) all are for anti ulcerations and for sickness she's on domperidone, though the steriods do help for that too, see that Man U won today/yesterday...bring it on, can't do the footy bets anymore but reckon they'll do it this season oh and well done you with your footy bet!! xx
