Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi Graeme, bugger the coffee, i,ll pour you a vino! cheers!! nice to meet you,glad you had good day,mines not been too bad either Yup cant sleep,wont sleep,thats me, not to busy on here tonite,hopefully they found some peace tonite,or just bloomin knackered Lol xx sheree
I seen the film, my dad loves jonny cash ( thats the change you get from a durex machine!!) Do you no East Carleton Manor (home of chapmans of Lotus?) well i dont live there, but just down the road. My other half wants our border collie to have pups,i dont think i could part with them ,b nice to think they goin to good home, with a purpose,no pressure Lol xx
Shezie... can't remember the name of the place where Lotus has it's offices but you can fish there with a permit and I had an experience there once of falling down a hole, talk about p myself I couldn't stop laughing xx
You dont want to bugger over the cat Graeme, no wot you mean, i got 3.they just seem to put themselves under your feet.
Teresa, my other half used to work at Lotus till he went self employed, not far from where we live, now Mark contracting in stratford, do you think he tryin to tell me something? Lol Its based at Hethal, sounds like you,d been safer on the race track than fishin xx
Never had much luck with cats...1st one we had I think was the 'runt of the litter' 2nd done a runner and the 3rd got hit by a car, came home took to the vets which cost a fortune then he done a runner, though did have 2 springer spaniels at the time and think they scared him off!! glad you had a nice day today...who said to you about the grapefruit? how about liquidising water melon and freezing, really refreshing xx
hi Shell2...where've you been hiding? hope you're ok xx
hi hun im not too bad thankyou i havent been on this site for a few days but i been feeling very down hun i think i am losing my mind i have been on other sites looking at morgues and undertakers and even asked ,y mc millan nurses if i can go into see a morgue to see what can happen in them i think my mind is going honestly xxxx
Hi Shezie used to go Snetterton to watch the Superbikes, never fell down any holes there lol!! the name of that place will bug me now, you'd drive past the railway pub then do a right into the industrial estate and drive past some 'real posh' houses, one of them was an old converted barn then past fields full of corn cobs..xx
