Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Dear MHM Don't know about being quick tonight though I thought I was then missed a few posts, am starting to flag!! liked your 'barstool' reference, is that polite for what I think it is?? makes you want to swear doesn't it when manipulative people come on here and inflict more heartache and pain 'f*****g BARSTOOLS!!' Going to make another cuppa then orf up the wooden hill and you should do to, there!! you've been told by your MUS :-) love and hugs your chickie Teresa xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my MUS chickie teresa you're right the barstool does mean what you think it means! lol You enjoy your cuppa i'm just going to make myself one too actually how funny is that? lol You get some kip and i'm gonna have me cuppa then watch a bit of tv before i try to get back to sleep again Hope you and our baby chick Michaela have a nice day today and that she is as comfy as possible Will post later today when we have been to the funeral directors to let you know how it went. Much love and big hugs holding your hand still sweet Love and hugs your CCC MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
Dearest MHM Great minds think alike eh? actually phaps not as I'm MUS and you're CCC lol!! don't stay up too late ok (as Mia would say). hope you manage some sleep and will be thinking of you later today, good night and sweet dreams Lots of love and lots of ((((((((hugs))))))) your chickie Teresa xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
mhm, hope your ok tonight hun, and hope daz is still managing a bit more food and drink and hope hes feeling bit better bless him. how are your teeth? have the a/b's done there job? hope so hope todays been ok and hope tomorrow is a good day love to all the family loads a love and hugs karen xxxxxxxx
teresa how are you today hun? hope sinus's are a bit better, and hope our baby chick is doing ok, bet your shattered after sunday all of you!! how lovely you all going away together for a few days, it will do you all the world of good, have a fab time babe and dont spend too much....lol hope you have a good night sleep and love and hugs to you both and special big hug for michaela, love karen xxxxxxx
juls hi hun, how has today been? ok i hope, hope your not working too hard. the weather been gorgeous has it there with you? hope R and family are all ok love and hugs, karen xxxxxx
shell, hope today has been a bit better for you hun and good luck for tomorrow am thinking about you babe, love and hugs karen xxxxxx
all other chickies and rooster hope youv'e all had a good day, love and hugs karen xxxxxxx
hey chickie Karen I heard from chickie Kate today. She is having as nice a time as possible away and will be home on friday. She sends her love to everyone and hopes you are all ok? How are you tonight? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hi MHM, it went great today hun, thankfully its not back, am so relieved but feel sad for those on here who are suffering tho. but can put my all into being there to those that need the support as i have had from so many loving and caring ppl on here. hope is all ok wiv u hunni loadsa love n hugs shell xoxoxox
