Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Oh feathered friends the tears are tricklin down as I write/type this we waiting on an ambulance Dbs sooo sick, Juls has info Pray for her yeah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Mother Hen Mellymoo and All our feathered friends, not forgetting Rooster and visitors to our hen coop.
Kate has had a very bad night with her DB, they havee been up all night. They are currently waiting / on their way to the hospital as DB is far from well. Kate is very tired and needs an awful lot of our love and support to help her through this.
Kate also could really use some reassurance that we will all be here for her, as she has not been able to be as visble as she has in the past.
I have attempted to tell her not to worry and that we all understand but we all know what it is like facing that wall!
Kate, honey, you and DB are having so many hugs and so much love coming your way from me xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(((((((((((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) and much, much more!
hey chickie Juls Thanks babe for letting me know about our Kate and DB i have txted her and will let you know if i hear anything. I should think she is at the hospital now so we all have to pray for her bless her heart I hope, as we all do, that everything goes ok and that are DB is made comfy and well and back with her loving family very soon. We all have to support our Kate now more than ever as she really is gonna need us but i know i don't have to tell you that. I hope and pray that all goes ok. Thank you again babe Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear chickie Moomy helen Thanks for your kind thoughts for our chickie Kate you really are very kind. We all have to stick together and be strong for our Kate and i know it will help her. Thanks again babe love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear chickie Fran thanks for your kind thoughts and message for our chickie Kate We're all in this together and i know you will be thinking and praying for our DB and our kate so thank you for that hun. I hope you also feel a little better today babe Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
To all my other little chickies! We all need to be thinking and praying for our chickie Kate and her dear mum DB. I'm sure if we all stick together we can be strong for Kate and help her in her hour of need and distress. When ever i hear anything i will let you all know and if anyone hears before me can they please let me know ok? Thinking of you all and a great big group hug for strenght and courage for our Kate Love you all Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Kate ,Have not spoken to you before but that does not stop me from wishing you and DB all the best and my thoughts are with you at this time love John.
