Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Rooster schmooster what you been up to hey? you been deleting your messages.? let it all hang out is my motto Oks kates awake anyone up for misbehavein lol??????? xxxxxxxxxxxxx
oh feathered friends nobodys awake, but thats good and hope you are all haveing pleasant dreams, not nightmares like crimewatch says lol I am wide awake, "wacaday" lol Some peeps are awake, mostly ones in turmoil, loseing or lost their moms, forgive me cos as much as I want to help I cant go there, hope peeps understand that i am only a few paces behind, probably will mean when I need support with losein my DB, no one will be around for me. cos ya get what you give out hey ? Movein on swiftly cos I have to yeah, I now fancy me fry up helen vOAA, Ive put our cat out and I got me head in the sand lol But Im oh so hungry, I will have the full monty, brekkie lol Kate xxxxxxxxxxx
so pleased you and your dad had a fab time, you both deserved it so much, what a great friend your mum has!!
you def do get back what you give out, and you give out so much love, care and support, and it will come back to you tenfold, i totally understand why you cant go to other threads here, its only natural hunni that you feel like this, as i was the same. your a fantastic person and daughter, and we all love you tons.
hope you managed to get your monster brekkie, and hope our db is ok today
sending tons of love and hugs love karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hope you managed yesterday ok babe, and hope our little michaela is ok. will text you again later today much love and hugs karen xxxxxxxxxxx
hey juls my friend, thanks for your p/m's hunni, your so caring and a wonderful friend hope your ok and hope richard has slowed down a bit!! much love and hugs karen xxxxxxxxxxx
my dear stalker helen
how are you hunni? and hows our caz doing? is tony still watching the vids??.......lol bless him!! have a good day babe, am off to cut the grass now, oh the joys!!!!!!!!!!! thanks for your wonderful support as always much love and hugs stalker karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey foggy
how you doin? is your thumb on or off????..................................... is it stiff or limp???????????????.............lol have a good day, much love and hugs karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hi jacq, how are you doing hun? hope they have managed to help with your dads pain much love and hugs karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my chickies What a lovely sunny day! Hope you are all ok and that you and your loved ones are all rested and happy? I know some of you had a bad day yesterday with thoughts and struggles and i was thinking of you all and to say you all got through it chickies so i'm so proud of you all!
I didn't have a good day myself what with one thing and another but not gonna burden you with my worries you all got enough to contand with! Besides today's another day eh? lol
I hope you all have a nice day today and that you and your loved ones are as comfy as possible. Love you all my little chickies and you all be good! lol Love and hugs to you all Love your MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
Hellooooo all, how is it in the hen coop? MHM, you are up and about bright and early.....hope all is ok? teeth?
Karen, your fellow stalker is here for you....!!!! Hope you are ok, and they aren't working you too hard?
Kate, did you manage to get to that Glasgow caff? and take Dianne too? They do the best coffee, not sure about tea, though! coffee stays hot while you eat the brekkers,brilliant!
Juls, hiya, busy teaching?
Sue Butty, thinking of you, Shell, you too, Teresa, hope Michaela is doing ok....and Donna, hope that storm wasn't too bad.....and Kim in case you are looking in, and Jacq.....Rooster Mick, Charles (they did put the cat out!)........
