Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie Deb if you not having the tea pass it to me i'll have it! lol Wahoo have two teas now!!! I'm so lucky but waste not want not eh? lol love and hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxx
Dear MHM you are so funny scare the cat stop it hurting the pigeons how am i going to get your next cuppa to you if the cat gets it lol soory Helen i should have warned MHM sooner about the cat lol Debs no probs coffee with sweetners will remeber that :) Dianne was your coffee ok with you or was it too cold after all the poor pigeon had to have a fight with a cat hope you managed to get some lol hugs chickie sue buttyxxx
hey chickie sue butty I saved the pigeon but it's a bald pigeon now! lol I'll leave the feathers for helen though she likes to feel useful and do the cleaning! lol Bless her i should clean them up really but well......... i'm just having so much fun here i can't be bothered!! lol I got me lazy moo head on tonight me thinks!! lol Just call me aunt sally with the octapus arms!! lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my chickie Charles I hope you have a lovely heli ride and don't forget to post the piccys here when you have time from your very busy schedule! lol I'm so jealous wish i was there too! Have a gday! Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear MHM how funny is this right i have just made a cuppa havent I? so i had to be in the kitchen to do that Michael my eldest has just come in from work and said Mum i know your busy but ................................... you do know the kitchen flooded dont you bloody hell (sorry) only had it done in march and now there water all over the place so will be right back after i have cleaned it up its from the dishwasher i think ooooopppppppsssssssssssss hugs chickie sue buttyxxxx
my dear chickie sue butty Poor you!! Why do things like that always happen when you really don't need it? lol Will be over in a bit with a big mop and a very large bucket! lol Have fun swimming in the water won't you! Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxx
Foggy how did you go down the cafe??? did you need fistycuff lessons? MHM i must have my lazy head on aswell chucked some towels down and emptied cupboard til the morning...............oh it is morning well later then lol and turned the water back on got Michael taking the pee out of me now he called a daft bat lol hugs chickie sue butty
hey my big bro rooster of lurve How's you diddling matey? Did you have fun down the caff? Missed you lots me little (well actually that's a lie cos you not so little! lol sorrreeeeeyyyyy that was a joke but you know that!) hero! Love and hugs your kid sis MHM xxxxxxxxx
