Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie sue butty I'll have another cuppa please tea white with 3 sugars!! lol Never turn down the amber necter me! lol Daz told me to buy a tea urn cos have 20-30 cuppa's a day! lol Cheeky man he is! love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Dianne I got cadburys choccie rich tea bicckies here if you want some? A drinks too wet without them eh? lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey chickie sue butty where's me tea???? lol Bet it's gone cold now but no worries i'll still drink it cos you can't waste the amber necter eh? lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
Oh MHM havent you got it yet??????? i sent it over by pigeon carrier lol oh did you get the message from moomy to put the cat out before we go to bed! love and hugs chickie sue buttyxxxx
hey chickie Teresa You back from reading all the posts yet? You still the cheeky moo though! lol Hope you and our Michaela are well and that you both had a good day today? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey chickie Juls have you gone to bed? If you have i hope you are having sweet dreams and that the boys are being good for you Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie sue butty Just got me tea thanks! lol Flipping pigeons!! The cats are out but their chasing pigeons now oh heck feathers everywhere now!!! lol Poor helen gonna have a lot of cleaning to do again in the morning! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxx
hey my chickie Charles Gday mate how you doing in the wonderful land of oz? Hope you and Oscar are well what adventures you been up to today? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxx
