Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey my chickie sue butty Tell michael his auntie mel is coming over to bop him on the nose! lol Cheeky boy! Iv'e fallen bigger men than him too so it's no prob! lol I'd have done the same as you though and poor helen got that to clean up too in the morning! She's gonna love us! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxx
My dish washer got clogged up and flooded the kitchen. It was just a bone in the filter. Check that first where it goes into the 'U' trap under the sink.
hey my chickie Debs Babe you are most welcome! No thanks needed though ok? I hope you sleep well and that you have a bit better day tomorrow( well today now! lol) I'm here if you ever need me Sweet dreams babe much love and big hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
All peaceful tonight ................lots of drunken girlies in very skimpy outfits with no vests on ! They'll catch pneumonia ! (I'm impressed I spelt that without the spell checker !)
I tried not to ogle or drool................I tried...........\;0)...................
They musta known that I'd be taking lessons from you and you'd bust their chops for 'em !
Mel, you had a romantic two person soiree to watch the sunset . Good on yer, glad Daz is feeling better did he give you a stick of rock ? \;0)....
I'm really not sure how all this works, but here I am awake and stressing and hoping there are other people out there. I don't know what your situation is but I really hope it all works out ok in the end for you. Loads of love, Debs x x x
hey rooster of lurve What you doing chucking bones in the dishwasher? Was you hoping the dog would follow to give him a wash? lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxx
he just laughing at me i chased him with the mop lol i told him you would come and bop him on the nose can you imagine what my neighbours must think mad woman with mop over her head lol sorry helen for the messy we are sorry arent we
Foggy it was the water inlet pipe that had come off so dont laugh because it was not just dripping it was pouring out Michael now thinks i need a hearing aid because he could hear it when he came in the door! he was trying to put his finger over the tap to stop the water coming out hello the stop cock is right behind him i couldnt get there to turn the water off
thats why he was/is calling my a daft bat like i put it there i wished lol hugs chickie sue buttyxxx
hey chickie debbie! I'm so glad you came back over here babe You are most welcome If you read my profile it has our story on there plus some pictures of my lovely Darryl and my daughter Kirsty oh and my mad beagle essie doodles!! lol I will help you babe so you just chat to me ok? I'm here and so are my chickies and we all understand what you are going through hun so you are not alone here ok? Holding your hand and sending you big huggles Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
