Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Dianne thank you and will take you up on that offer and thank you for holding my hand because i will need it to give the kids the extra love they deserve thank you hugs chickie sue buttyxxx
hey chickies Sorry for the delay just had to make a cuppa
My dear Debs Babe you are now one of my chickies and under my wing so welcome hun and you cahst away and we'll listen and help you ok? I'm sorry you feel low tonight babe and if i can do anything you just have to shout ok. Welcome to my thread and i hope you know we don't let people go once they come on here! lol You're stuck with us for life now! Holding your hand and hugging you from afar! Request me as a friend if you want then if you ever need to have a private chat you can p/m me if you want to hun Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My dear chickie sue butty Babe i'm sorry you had a crap childhood We're two peas in a pod eh? why ley what your evil mother rob you of your future babe? If she still rules your thoughts she has and is still winning eh? I have to tell myself this nearly every day and no way am i letting someone so evil ruin my life now!! You have us now as i have all of you so who needs evil mothers eh? You keep your head held high and don't forget i'm still holding your hand and giving you big huggles Love you babe you're doing good!! Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i have just been reading your profile and my heart goes out to you i thought like you with regards to the wedding but it was the best thing i did Kev and i got married on the 29th may and he passed away on the 2nd kev singed the regisrty book and said every vow after this he went down hill so fast and the day you are getting married is my sons birthday so will be thinking of you request me as a friend if you wish and i will speak to you either here or there its hard im not going to lie to you but try to remain positive for you and your soon to be hubs and daughter
MHM two peas in a pod no you are much nicer look how many chickies you got to look after now lol thats what i have always thought why let her rule your life funny hpw they pop up from time to time withput you realising they are there i couldnt have a better extended family than all of you here if only we could choose hey lol loving you right back chickie sue buttyxxx
