Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Thats great i is fab with kids, i have step kids but none of my own and that makes me sad but im determined not to do sad tonight, its a big long story and I am here to pick chikky Teresa up, so Il save it for another day, yipee I am excited So I am surrogate aunt to loads of kids hurrah me lovein that, boys girls? tell me if your not off to bed?
there all boys, and there gorgeous (i know i'm biased) lol, there 17, 15 and 9 bless the little buggers lol look forward to you sharing your story with us later. how many step kids you got? do u get on with them? (nosey aint i) lol x
Maybe girlies I should read up on stuff but I am the type that instruction books go in the bin Get my drift? I cant work this laptop copy and paste? well what the buggery bollocks does that mean? ooeer did I just swear will i be expelled now?
You dont drive us nuts but i know how you feel and i def think there is a bond between us 4 which is lovely as hope to think that we all lift each other, the only thing we're likely to fall out on is footy teams though me and karen are ok as we fellow supporters!! ha ha sory who is it you support oh yeah liverpool LOL!! only jesting. Im listening to channel 335, some of it crap but i just hate silence, though on 336 there's big ones!! whatever they are !! well im going to have get 1 more drink then off to bed as I dont know about having bags under my eyes I have suitcases!! still be here for a bit but if all going to bed will speak tomorrow, lots of love and hugs to both of you t xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I have 3 stepkids we get on great, they think im insane, I have you Teresa on friends list but not Karen or Mother mel, must do it cos theres a lot you want private
glory glory man united la la la la la ....... who's liverpool?????????????? sorry kate only joking lol have requested you as friend dont know if u want to now though lol
