Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
have just sent you a pm, thanks so much for pics of my surrogate nephew, he is adorable. how is michaela doing honey? any news on whats going on yet? thinking about you both xxx
Hey Chicky Karen good to hear a friendly voice, well typeing? eh? ive left enough wafflin tonight, it may take you a while ha ha, got to go see to mum, meet you back here say week on Friday? lol back in 15 mins luurvvve K xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Karen have just sent you a p/m im glad you have ordered dear kate a straight jacket as her last post on here asked whether there was any sign of baby (but im not sure if that was a joke as she know she a surrogate aunt) I think you have def lost the plot now kate!! phaps it just me as head all over the place at mo and had no more than 10hrs sleep since the weekend, how are you feeling? xx
Are you still about Kate?? and how is the duracell bunny today! xx
Not going to do the big goodbye yet as sure we'll be on for a while and add to it while our darling mother hen mel isnt on here, star that she is!!! lots of love and hugs teresa xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i am so sorry for whats going on with michaela bless her, am praying it all gets sorted very quick. and poor angie, its one thing after another mate isnt it? its hard to sleep when things are going on isnt it? but hope you manage to get some rest tonight. xx
