Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
My little chicks karen and Kate, i have been sitting here reading your posts and it seems i need to take you both in hand!! well the frankfurter mite help with that, haven't felt one of them for a long time!! hahah See you are both bad for me bringing out my worst points. You two behave or i will have to slap you with a wet lettuce leaf to sort you both out!! haha I just hopw Teresa is not getting corrupted by you both.......! Take care both of you and sleep well love and hugs mother hen mel xx
Ooh mother melly-moo Sorry didnt know big mutha was watchin, hope we made you giggle and not cross with the chicks Night night mother hen Love trouble causer Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
mY little chickens Kate and Karen, mother hen is always watching over you all so best be good!!! Karen thanks for sending the frankfurter i'm sure it will come in handy! lol now you girls be good little chickens and go to bed! me i'll prob be up for a while yet so beware what you say! haha have a good sleep and mother hen could never be sross with her chicks for long as you make me laugh so much. Take care girlies speak soon love and big hugs mother hen mel xxx
My Dear Karen, nite lovey and don't take the frankfurter to bed to eat or may make hubby jealous!! hahaha speak tom hopefully you really are a funny lot on here we'll prob all get banned now for being rude!!! what the heck! love and hugs mother hen mel xxx
