Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Think all this talk about where was booked is just an excuse!! We could always get a take away? Kate as for wanting Liverpool v Barcelona was that because you worried about the opposition to come ha ha!! Seems you and mother hen mel are in a league of your own with who you 2 support as least with us interbred manccy's there are 2 of us Lol!! Karen has text me and said that her internet playing up so thats why she's not about but she say's hi to all and sends her love, Kate know what you say about the smoking outside its p'ing down here so me thinks I've got to wait!!
Yeah Your right there Teresa Im afraid,,, very afraid Just have to win cos couldnt stomach losein to you lot, its in the blood and upbringing you see lol
Have braved the rain but only with head stuck out patio door, done well today what with feeling rough as only my 4th 1!! but it absolutely chucking down so no more...great way to stop!! how about you?XXXX
