Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Thanks teresa for the post, i do try and keep my chin up most of the time, but when i see my dad yestersay with no HAIR again, and not eating i just come home and totally p****d off the rest of the afternoon. I sat with him all morning with my arm round him i wouldn't have had it any other way though.
Hi Helen (helly) Thanks for the reply i am so sorry to read about your husband, but you are not alone. My thoughts are with you.
I hope everyone has a good day, the weather is c***p.
Hello,all chicks and Mama Hen Mel.....Jacq, it's just started p*******ing down here, too, am sending love, hugs and bucket loads of sympathy to you......
Juls, was at our local restaurant, pity I didn't know it was the wrong one, lol!
Teresa, hope Michaela's count improves fast, am sure it should! Yes, Filgrastim is daily, from what I remember, but can't remember for how long........I guess she also has anti-gout meds?
Helly, hope your hubby is having an ok day.....
Mother Hen Mel, where is that dentist? And how are you doing? And Darryl?
Hope today is being kind to you all, thanks for cheering up miserable Kate last night, think you are wonderful each and everyone of you,
Helly hope your head dont hurt too much today, makes a change thats its not me with a hangover ha ha, and hope your Keithy baby is good today,xxxxxxxxxxxxx Helen hope you and our talented Caz are doing just fine, you are a wonderful lady and a fab mum xxxxxxxxxxxxx Jacq, hope todays being a little kinder to you and your Dad?xxxxxxxxxxxxx Teresa any better chick? jees no wonder your run down superwoman, love to our likkle one,xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Karen sinuses any better babes? its rotten feeling poorly, and youve suffered with them babe xxxxxxxxxxxx Juls I love ya your barkin mad, students must adore you, hope Richards doin well today xxxxxxxxx Mels hows our Darryl? and you babe you rock chick rebel, lol, love to chikky Kirsty, can just imagine you both screaming at each other hee hee xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Kim sweetheart, you ok? you know Im always gonna bug ya babe xxxxxxxxx Rooster youve been a bit quiet? said youve been a bit quiet??? thinkin of of you mate , hopes your behavin xxxxxxxxxx Jo, Sweetcarolann, Donna our gorgeous neigh Lynne, Hugs and sloppy kisses to you all, hope I aint forgotten anyone? am trying and racking my likkle brain?? only our Mellymoos such a magnate ! xxxxxxxxxxxx Chicken charles sorted out BT yet? ooh dont get me started on them once ran a small business lost shed loads of money due to bt, managed to get £750 compensation from them but what a fight I had, good luck matey xxxxxxxxxxxx
Well Im bored done all the housework Ironing etc etc waiting on someone from social services to come out to assess the house needs etc for our DB comeing home, gave me a timescale of 10am till 4pm, hope they are here soon need to go to the hospital and get my DB fix ! My minted big brother been on tinternet and sent mum some 100% cashmere socks , hark at her, £25 a pair from the white co, hee hee hope she will wear em bless him and his big wallet
Thats all folks, sorry for borin you all, boy can I waffle on Buckets of love Your mate Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
