Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Teresa, just saw your post before I switched off, the growth factor will be the Filgrastim I said about, or something very similar, and it works well.....love,......
hi teresa glad u liked my tip, JACQ im going thru the same journey as you with my hubby keith, havent been on here that long, keep strong, ive found strength today that i didnt know i had, thinking of u helly xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear moomy, when I rang the hospital as still not allowed in to see my babe they never gave a name for what she was having (its a daily thing?) but thankyou for saying it possibly or along the lines of Filgrastim and how good it is, you've reassured me more,
Hope you have nice sleep and sweet dreams love and hugs teresa XXXXXXXXXXXX
hope you didnt work too hard tonight and hope you and Richard are ok? didnt get to have that dinner on you, was obviously that rubber bouncing, me and moomy were set on a 3-course with vino and extras (that was moomy that added extras - not sure what she meant by that!!oo-er, could have meant anything!!)
Sweet dreams Helen, sorry all about my footie rant and sulk, what can I say Im passionate,,, Well passionate about hateing manu (lol) Really wanted a Liverpool v Barcelona final ( sorry mellymoo) Im like you Teresa never ever smoke in doors and its peeing down out there !!
Dear Jacq Sorry to hear of what you are going through with your dad, I know only too well what it is like, but keep your chin up (easy to say I know) but if your dad has half the strength that his courageous daughter has then he'll get through this the same as you will honey.
