Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
How was things this afternoon and how is DB? surprised you're not watching the footy, there's a great team playing!! hope you feeling slightly better and your Dad too? lots of love Teresa XXXXXXX
my internet has been up and down last night and today, has anyones elses
mel, hope your feeling ok and hows your teeth doing? any news on a dentist yet hun? how did daz appt go today? well i hope. thinking about you all
kate, so sorry for your horrible news hunni about our db, i know how hard this news is to take in babe, if you want to talk about anything i am here for you, or you can pm me anytime, thinking about you all
teresa, sorry you havent been able to go and see our michaela today, and that your still feeling coldy, hope your babe is feeling bit better today, thinking of you both, the best team playing at the mo eh hunni??? lol
foggy, are we all going to the er..........................cafe with you tonight?
helen, hope you hubby and caz are all ok today, thinking about you all
juls, sorry about internet crashing last night hun, hope your richard is ok today and you too, thinking about you both
kim, havent heard from you for a few days hun, hope your feeling ok, thinking about you
helly, hi hunni how are things today? hope your keith feeling ok, and that your bit brighter, thinking about you both
to anyone i may have forgotten, very sorry, my brain not working properly........lol
thinking of you all, and sending tons of love and hugs love you all love chickie karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hope everyone is doing just fine, for some reason i feel really really positive the day, keith been awake all day and ate all of my culinary delight, (egg and chips! propa tatties tho!) he's watching the match(brill) and i'm having some more DRINK! had me hair chopped the day, bitch cut it wonky, the only tip she got off me was "don't eat yellow snow" still new so a hope u dont mind me posting. helly xxxxxxxxxx
hey helly howdy doody you.. my internet still playing up, this is the 4th time im trying to post this, better bloody work this time...aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrggggggggggh good to see you hunni and glad your feeling more positive thats great, wow your culinary delights and real spuds too............lol, am coming round for tea tomoz....lol, bet it was lovely to see keith eating it all, is he watching our best team??? MAN U of course!!!!!...lol have a drink for me, or two or three wont you? i'm not greedy....lol
wot a bloody bitch cutting your hair wonky, if i were you id take some yellow snow (or yellow something) in and make her eat it....................lol
your welcome here anytime, were all friends, its good to see ya here, enjoy your evening
hows u the day? done owt thrilling? yeah man u, doesnt float my boat! it was good to c him eat, hes looking a bit droopy eyed, but he hasnt had his siesta. thats why. u know i keep jumping up to the mirror and pulling the short side, as if thats gunna do any good! i had trouble getting on here on saturday, kept saying something about the server( a daint like tennis) and user denied, ( about time, ive accepted them all my life!) ( bar keithy of course,) theres not many on the night is there? but by the time ive replied to u on page 191, everyone else is on page 2006! im feeling a bit tipsy already, av only had 2! or is it three?
lots o love father jack xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey Helly My names Kate, I can be your new mate yeah AS LONG AS YOU DONT FOLLOW THEM MANCCY INTERBREDS YEAH Hee Hee Teresa and Karen Gawd Barcelona were such a let down xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello is this the marie celeste? its funny, keith always said I depress people, jesus, i didnt think i was that bad! ha! ha! it must be that millenium bug i sent out on the www in 2000, well im not the quickest at typing, ha ha ! sods bloody law, its the only time, ever, ive been on here in a pretty positive mood and theres no one here! please dont send me to coventry, a live in newcastle and if i go past sunderland i get lost! well ill just crack open another can, while i wait....................................................DRINK! lots of love helly (father jack) mama hen mel hope alls ok with onc and ur lovely darryl xxxxxxxxxx
Uh-oh, this site seems to have suddenly got a bit boozy, any spare, lol? Hiya, all, hope today hasn't bee too bad for y'all? (woops, that was a bit Texan, got taught that when visiting last year or two, bruv lives there) Seriously, hope that things aren't too bad.... Kate, hope the visit to DB was ok today, Helly, glad your man sounds ok-ish, Teresa, hope you aren't fretting too much at the cold and that Michaela's news today is better....Mama Hen Mel, hope Darryl and the teeth are coping.....Karen (you Deputy, you), look after those sinuses, steam them but don't venture outside for an hour after, else you'll get so much pain....Juls, look after yourself my friend and keep up the p/ms!......need an early night, will have to get up at 6 again, yuk......!
