Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
not a lot mate, got another sinus infection, sound like a fraud really juls with everything everyone her going through, how can something so stupid make you feel so rough? just got my crb through so i can start my carer job shortly, oh and playing on the wii.....lol
sinus infections are just pants, they HURT and just make life miserable. Have you been given any antibiotics for them? Whats the new job, obviously with either young or vulnerable people if you have a CRB cert! What will you be doing and where?
hey juls, sorry about that my internet went down couldnt get it connected bloody thing. anyway to your questions about 10 hours ago lol, am on antibiotics again 2nd time in 3 weeks doc wants to send me for nasal wash?????????????????????? but nothing to worry about its only sinus probs. my new job is with vulnerable people in the community, am a bit nervous but also looking forward to it who do you teach juls? is it young children? youv'e prob fell asleep at pc now, after the wait...lol have a good sleep and lovely dreams, hope richard has a good day loads a love karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
thanks teresa hunni, hope you get a good nights sleep, and so hope you feel better in morning so you can go and see your michaela, speak soon sweetie love ya loads love karen xxxxxxxxx
