Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
my chickies and rooster mick What are people going to think of us!!! lol I hope no new people are reading this and think we have all lost it????......................LOL they are funny though and they say laughter is the best medicine so you go ahead and laugh!!!! love and hugs chuckling mother hen mel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hehehehe Love the look of that pay check heheh, won't take it to work though, they'll all be after one from you as well and then just where will we chickies be???????????
foggy, i know just how your sis feels..............lol
juls hun, your payrise brill, a maccy d sounds great, shall i go and get us one? your the one with the great words and knowing just what to say, your fab hun xx
my chickie Juls I agree you keep that paycheck under your hat! lol Don't want to loose all my money by paying wages!!! Love and hugs mother hen mel xxxx
Tell you what Karen me old mucca, howzabout instead of a maccy 'D' we really treat ourselves with a ...... um ...er..... der....? pickled egg???? (BLUERGH and yucks perhaps NOT)
My dear chickies and rooster foggy, Well i have had a fun evening but sadly i am going to have to love and leave you all now. Darryl is really tired but won't go to bed without me as he said he likes to feel me by his side!! AAAAHHHHH bless him! so am going to bed now. Plus i want to get up at 7am and get into the bathroom before Kirsty or i'll be waiting for hours! lol You all take care and will speak to you all tomorrow and let you know how darryl got on with the onco. Love and big hugs my mellys hero's love mother hen mel xxxxxxxxxxxxx
