Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Juls my little chickie, Night night sweetie hope you an Richard have a comfortable night, an no creeping up on us tonight!! lol Sleep well babe i'll save you some cheese if Kate don't eat it all! lol much love and big hugs mother hen mel xxx
Hey my little welsh deputy chickie Kate, Be patient little one was just trying to work out my finances!!! lol Well i think i will pay you £2000,000 a week how does that sound??? You could buy a lot of pinot and cheese with that eh!!! lol love an hugs a very skint mother hen mel xxxx
My dear Kate!! I'm so very sorry to offend but when you rang me you sounded welsh!!! Or are my ears bad??? I apologise if i got that wrong!!! I'll have to think of another title for you then as don't want my chickie to be offended and sad! I'll have to increase your wages now cos i feel so bad!! lol how bout deputy sheriff chickie kate? How does that sound to you? love an hugs mother hen get it wrong mel xxxx lol
deputy Karen, Have promoted Kate to deputy sheriff chickie kate!!! So thats her new name now!!! lol Big error by me there me thinks!! lol Trust me to get it wrong! If theres a foot and a mouth i'm bound to find them!!! lol Love an hugs mother hen mel xxx
