Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Oks you asked Karen, was born in Edinburgh Scotland, Got evicted left in a van in the middle of the night to live in actually a very nice Victorian house in Liverpool. Quite dysfunctional family but hey ho
Deputy sheriff chickie Kate, I really am sorry i got your accent wrong!! I'm crap at accents as you found out so i hope you forgive the error of my ways!!!! I didn't mean to offend and will increase your wages to a zillion pounds per week to make up for it! This is gonna bankrupt me for sure!!! lol Hope i haven't upsat you and if i have i truly am sorry! love an hugs mother hen mel xxx
Deputy karen, Sending you another rum an coke think i need one too!! Me and my big mouth!!! lol Hope deputy sheriff chickie Kate forgives me as i really do love her soo much???? love an hugs mother hen mel xxx
and also i have been cracking up here listening to all you lot,my head hurting so much through laughing, we all go but i have one complaint,i did'nt gain the title chickie tortoise for nothing so because you all made me laugh so much and im slow at posting i missed out at the bar,can i have a lock in and order 4 baileys with ice and 2 bottles of magnus please,anyone fancy going night clubbing,can be ready in ten mins
love chickie tortoise XXXX
hi juls not spoke to you before i dont think but hope richard soon feels better when i was having cheme and radio i just felt so bloody exhausted all the time but improving alittle each day,not easy for you either i know but it always helped knowing doug was right by my side all the time take care,im here if you need me love chickie tortoise kim XXXXXXXXXXXXX
Ooh girlies I aint ever offended, in all fairness Mellymoo I was Ratted Hysterical, right pain in the arsenal alls I did was blubbed I am embarrased Babes, but laugh at most things and it was kinda funnyt hey, and you still talkin to me ha ha
