Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey Chickie Kate, you really have a discerning taste! lol One bottle of pinot and a cheese board full of a variety of cheese on it's way to you now!!!lol Don't drink it all on your own though don't forget to share!! lol
Karen some cadburys wholenut winging it's way to you with an enourmouse glass of rum and coke!!
Juls tell your boys to look after their own kids!! lol Poor grandad hope he doesn't get too worn out with the rug rats running around!
yey!!! Deputy Karens a billionaire!!!! Free drinks all round for us then!! And shopping from marks and spencers no tesco's anymore!!! Quick everyone get their order in before deputy Karen does a runner with all the money!! lol love an hugs mother hen mel xxx
Hey my little chickie Kate, I now knight you welsh deputy chickie of the year!!! So now we all have to call you welsh deputy!!! Hope that suits you as i like to please!!! lol love an big hugs mother hen mel xxx
Mother Hen Mellymoo I think I am going to say good night to you all, even though the sound of some decent cheese is tempting, you have got some different cheeses haven't you, Karen's in the way so I can't see, 'scuse me Karen - Can't see past you'
Hey Deputy Karen, I've just promoted our chickie Kate to Welsh deputy chickie!! What do you think her wages should be???? lol Glad the rum going down well think i'll have another too!! lol Keep them flowing ladies may put some music on an have a dance soon!!! lol love an hugs mother hen mel xxx
