Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
oh your words made me cry, you have such a lovely way with words, bless you hunni.
hope your ok sweet, sorry your having some probs with your 17 year old, but as mel and kate said things will get better soon, i too have a 17 year old and have had some probs before with him, it must be the age thing, i can imagine its the last thing you need right now hunni, but things will all turn out ok. you are a wonderful person, and we are all walking right beside you, and are always here to try and help and support you babe
a payrise would be good...............mama hen mel, (bet shes run off now).......lol
My dear Tortoise chickie Kim, That was so sweet what you wrote to our deputy Karen! She has been promoted and deserves a pay rise i agree so at your request she now has £2,00000.0000000 a week wages!!! lol not sure how much that is but i know it's alot! lol You really are a very special lady and i'm proud to have you as a friend. love and big hugs mother hen mel xxxx
Our two son's decided to pitch up with their two (lovely to see them but Richard is feeling very fragile), now we have three hyperactive 4-6 yr olds charging round playing rough and tumble, one son disappears off onto the computer up stairs and the other outside to his car to read up on something for his car. my daughter is out teaching and I am left in charge of keeping three away from granddad who REALLY cannot cope with the chaos.
Nighty Night Jules, sleep well babes, spose Il have to share me mousetrap cheese with our karen Kim and Mel Sleep Well Sweetheart xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
