Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Karen Juls nad Mick, Thank you girlies for tonight you have both been the best friends in the whole world!!! I really don't know how i am going to repay you, i will always be in your debt! I hope you don't mind but was going to try to get Darryl to bed now and maybe if i go as well he may rest better. So was going to go to bed as i feel quite tired too now. I feel a bit bad leaving you when you have just both been so nice to me and hope you don't feel like i'm dumping you. I will let you know how Darryl gets on tomorrow with his second round of radio, but just hoping not as bad as today. Mick sorry to leave you babe as you come on but i really hope you are ok and hope to speak to you very soon
Night night my mellys angels love an hugs mother hen mel xxx
you dont need to feel bad................you get yourself and your man to bed, and hope you both have a lovely sleep, you both must be shattered, and hope darryl has a settled night, please let me know how he gets on tomoz, thinking about you as always,
am off to bed too now, nite nite chickie juls and rooster mick, hope you get some sleep, have lovely dreams, love and hugs chickie karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hello, all, Mother HenMel, I am so very glad that you got on well with the emergency Doctor, have been dreaming of you and Darryl, concerned that you are being looked after properly! I just couldn't stay awake any longer.... Now I've read back I am so much more relieved that things are better, you must ensure the Doc gives him that jab at his appointment today, and they give you anti nausea stuff to bring home, that was such a nasty experience for you both and just adds to the stress of it all, doesn't it?
It seems to take for ever to get someone to come out....I had to call paramedics when my hubby's hip replacement dislocated, he was in agony and screaming with pain, they were there in under 5 minutes but even that seemed ages when he was in so much pain....he's fine now, than goodness....
I hope you have a much easier day today and will be thinking of you both....
Chickie Karen, hope you slept well after that worry, it was wonderful of Mama Hen Mel to get back on here and tell you how things were so you didn't worry any longer....
Chickie Juls, you too were brilliant and reassuring...and live so near, it is brilliant of you to be there so close for Mama Hen Mel if she needs you, hope Richard is well and not at all stroppy today....
Good Morning All Mother Hen Mellymoo, I do hope you and Darryl had a good night and that today goes well for you, I will be thinking of you both. Moomy is right please do tell the hospital today what happened last night as they can give you anitemetics to help prevent that occuring again. Morning Karen hope you are well today. I am off to exercise the hoover and tea towels - What an exciting day I have ahead - any volunteers to swap???????? No? thought not!
hope your'e all ok today.............. have heard from teresa, she said michaela been ok, she even made teresa a cup of tea!!, she said its been good to hear michaela laugh again, she sends her love to you all xx
mel, thinking about you and darryl, and hope he managed to settle and have a good nights sleep, and you too babe!!
kate, hope your all ok, and that our db is picking up and not feeling too bad bless her!!
helen, hope you had a good nights sleep, and wasnt too worried, glad your hubby is fine now, and hope caz has a wonderful time away bless her!! wheres the sun gone today?? and its so cold......
juls, hows that housework going?? i will swap with you as i need to hoover, polish, do washing and sort the weeds out in the garden, what time u coming here?????? lol hope richard is feeling ok today!!
kim, hope your feeling ok today babe!!
foggy, you at that er..........cafe today??............ i said at that cafe today??
sending lots of love and hugs to you all, love chickie karen xxxxxx
