Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Mel, I too hope all is better by now, that Darryl has had something to stop the sickness and you can rest a wee bit easier, take care, we all love you......
Is Darryl in real trouble, have you heard back from Melly, is there anyone on thE forum who we might be able to ask if his reaction is normal. Did Mel phone the emergency line or out of hours DR?
Juls, not too sure, but Karen did look up and yes, sickness can be one of the side effects, think Mel just rang whatever, the emergency number she had, the reply was someone would be there within the hour...we are just waiting, hoping she would be able to get back, but not expecting it, really....
Iexpect she will be tied up for sometime, I remember when we used to have to call the emergency services for my mother, the wait time was always the least time spent.
Helen hun Don't fret or worry we will pass on your message to Melly. Goodnight and no dreaming of musical scores or sight readings OK. I will chat with you tomorrow sleep well love Juls
yes headache and sickness is side effects, but if very sick like darryl is they can give him something, so hope this is whats happening at mo, i know what your saying about docs when we had to call them for mum when she was poorly they werent normally very quick xxx
Well what a scarey time!! the dr has just been out and he has given darryl an injection for the sickness and has left some co-codamol here and some volterol suppositries for darryl's pain. Darryl has settled now thank god! Bless him i felt so flipping useless. I called the out of hrs emergency dr they have been so nice to us tonight. The dr was lovely and really reassured us that these sre side effects of radio but to tell them at the hospital tomorrow and they should give darryl an anti sickness jab before he comes home and also some stronger anti sickness tablets and painkillers.
Thank you all so very much for all your concern and support without you all i would have been a wreck!! I will never be able to repay you all for all your kindness, i thank you all from the bottom of my heart. You are all my mellys angels and i love you all so much thank you thank you thank you!!! Love an hugs mother hen mel xxx
Yes also taking time to get full med history and shoe size etc. Poor Mel, I have never seen her soo frantic, it's impossible to know what to do for the best.
