Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Mother Hen Mel, you've done the right thing in phoning for help, hopefully someone will be there with you very soon.....keep strong and please try not to panic, but do tell us how you and Darryl are when you can, we all care.....
good the doc coming to see him, the poor darling, this all stinks my sweet and its horrible to for you to see him like this esp when he doing so well, these treatments are so strong arent they? and the side effects are awful, have looked on net for the effects and sickness is one of them, but if very sick they can give something to help, so hope this is what doc gonna do, we are here for you, you just come and talk or rant or cry and iwe will be here ok.... please try not to panic babe, help will be with you soon................ xxxxxxxx
Hello, Mother Hen Mel, I guess the Doc must be there with you and poor Darryl right now, and hope they will settle him down quickly, you poor sweet, it's so worrying.....you'll want to watch over him now, I expect, please do but get some rest too, yourself....you need to be strong and well for him.....this******disease, why, oh why? love from your chick Moomy....
Chickie Karen, yes, am ok thanks, yes you are so right, this disease is so awful, the treatments are too, wish there was some way of treating that didn't destroy so much.....Hope Mel and Darryl are ok, am worried about them both.....
Caz is doing well, off to Stornoway tomorrow, back in time for clinic next Monday......we just never know, though, do we? I do hope Mel will be able to get back to us, but it might just be tomorrow....she'll want to be with Darryl all night now, I guess....
