Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
everyone certainley cheered me up,only one problem carnt keep up,your all so fast at posting,im slower than a tortoise,so i can be known as chickie tortoise too,thanks for a fun night
mother hen mel hope all goes well with radio tomorrow
night all love kim (chickie tortoise) XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
hiya foggy!!! so glad your ok!! i say can't have eggs..... i say can't have eggs!! lol found out today got high cholesterol 7.6!!! meant to be below 4 aparently so no eggs for me now!!! Shame bout that
was just off to bed but glad caught up with you before i went!
Glad you're ok mate we was getting worried bout you and Karen wet herself and needs her smalls back or Will's got to sleep in the wet patch!!! lol Much love and big hugs mother hen mel xxx
Kimmy, my little tortoise chickie!! I don't mind how slow you type babe i will always wait for a reply from you before i go so no worries there! It's just so nice to hear from you and i'm so very pleased we cheered you up and that you had a fab time tonight. I officially appoint you our little chickie tortoise who has lots of love to share! much love and hugs mother hen mel xxx
Mick, you really need to iron quicker.... i said iron quicker!! lol My poor chickies are all getting chills where a girl should never have a chill........ trust me i know these things!!! lol much love and hugs mother hen mel xxxxx
Mama hen mel chickie tortoise i am now,officially and i wear it with pride please tell your chickies here tomorrow and surrogate mom now you must go to bed now and rest, love kim chickie tortoise XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Mick, well at least the firemen help to keep them warm!! lol not sure where them hoses are gonna go though! lol ohhh eeerrrrr! I'm going to bed now as Darryl got first Radiotherapy tomorrow so night night my friend hope you sleep well too. love an hugs mother hen mel xxxx
My Dear Chickie tortoise kim, You wear your official tortoise badge with pride too babe you earned it!!! lol I will be sure to let all my chickies know and surrogate mother hen Karen too. I hope you try to get some sleep too babe and i am going now too. will post tomorrow evening so if you are about feel free to pop in and say hi. night night sweetie much love and big ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))) love mother hen mel xxxx
