Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
forgot to say sorry well done kim for 6 days without smoking not 5 as i said before!! It's this flipping straight jacket Karen put me in have to type with me nose and 5 and 6 close together!! lol love and hugs mother hen mel xxx
right me darlings, am off to bed now, all this excitement has made me tired, must be getting old. thanks for the great fun, its good to laugh isnt it, and hope wev'e managed to cheer our kate up, and our kim!! mel all the best for tomoz, please let me know how it all goes babe
luve ya all lots love hugs and big flaked choccy firemen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
am taking jacket off for you now mel, and putting some cream on your red nose, lol
kate, joining juls.........oooher, your so funny xxxx
night night Karen and thank you also for a fab funny night i'm going to bed soon too as got hospital tomorrow but will let you know how darryl gets on. sleep well babe and thanks for freeing my hands was just wondering how i was gonna sleep in the straight jacket!! lol
well all my feathered friends, guess i best go get some sleep so i am ready for hospital for darryl tomorrow. Thank you all so much for making me laugh so much and i hope i cheered some of you up also? I hope you all sleep well and will post again tomorrow evening as to how darryl gets on with radio. Take care my little chickies and hope you all sleep well and have lovely dreams of choccky covered firmen! lol much love and hugs mother hen mel xxx
You alright Juls................................I said you alright? Foggy xx Well at least we know he can still type!!! hehehe Now I really am going to bed nite all!!
night night Kim hope you sleep well, and glad you had a fab time tonight. You enjoy your choccky covered firemen and i will message tomorrow. love and big hugs mother hen mel xxxx
