Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Mel you crease me up Kim seriously well done Chicks hens have you seen the film aeroplane? Im like Lloyd Bridges Its a bad week to give up the pills.......... A bad week to give up the booze............ Bad week to give up the smokes.......... Hee Hee Juls Bed Now, Im joinin ya, I mean I aint that kinda girl,thanks all you make me howl with laughter, you are all like therapy Gotta meet DBs consultant at 10, love you all Now wheres me sugar for me cornflakes Charles?? Night All xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Karen, glad you got your priorities right with putting Will in the wet patch!! thats my girl!! lol I know i start things but i'm funny though! lol and of course thats why all my chickies love me!!!! lol big head mother hen mel xxx
Kate night night me little chickie let us know how DB is tomorrow take care love you loads. Tell Karen to let me out the straight jacket before you go cos it's not fair me poor nose is so sore from all the typing!! lol Kim a great big choccky covered fireman with an enormouse hose... ops... i mean flake coming your way lol
