Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Flippin heck!!! Even the guest host gets a straight jacket!!! Theres alot of them about tonight now not sure what to do as still got handcuffs on and lost the key!! lol And me nose is getting sore!! lol xxxxxxlove and hugs mother hen mel
forgett the sensible sometimes bit,sounds much more fun being daft,everyone gone bonkers tonight lets keep ti that way,i know im daft that comes natural to me just need the sense of humour along side it now
karen its lovely to be back,should of come back earlier
juls hopefully i'll loose the plot soon maybe i already have just dont realise it
now ladies dont humour me,well please do and teach me sense of houmour,i did have it at one time in my life,
anyone got chocolate,not smoked for 6 days now,this toast is boring,all taps on the back and congratulations very much appreciated
luv kimXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX PS Told you i am slow in posting
thought you had gone!!!! Kim well done not smoking for 5 days keep it up i know you can do it!!! Mind i smoke like a trooper and should stop really so you got more will power than me!!! I'll send you lots of mars bars to help take the craving away or would you prefer a choccky covered fireman???? lol Kate put that feather away i can't take any more gonna sneeze all over me keyboard and then that won't be nice!!!! lol xxxxx
Karen, don't pee yourself cos mick got all your underwear and your make the seat all wet!!! lol Plus poor Will will probably end up sitting in the wet patch!!! lol ohhhhhhh errrrr here i go again........... lol xxxxxx
Sorry to be quiet, been reading but also answering loads of emails, must go and put my head on a pillow even if it will be little sleep tonight methinks... love to all Charles
