Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
So saddened buddy to read of Keiths passing Mate, we are no substitute for your man, know how you adored him but one of us are nearly always about if you need to talk, Massive ((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))) Just remember chick you did him proud xxxxxxxxxxx DB will look out for him .........
Dear Helly, I am so sorry about the news of your dear husband Keith please accept my condolences thinking of you {{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}} no words can take away your pain please remember you have the love and support from all your friends here HUgs suexxx
Dearest Mel, I will be thinking of you tomorrow as i do every day holding your hand very tightly hugging you from afar you are doing so well Mel as are Daley and Kirsty Daz is so very proud of you and he knows that you love him so much no other words will take away your pain but remember MHM we love you very much and will hold your hand along the way love and the biggest HUGS to you all suexxxx
You have been in my thoughts all day, wished I could of been there in person but certainly have been in heart and mind. Kev and I held a minute silence at 11am when you said your goodbyes to Darryl, I hope the day has gone exactly as you, Kirsty and Daley planned.
