Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
MHM love and ((((((((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))) Hello to all feathered friends, hope today is treating you all kindly Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mel, have received your lovely texts thankyou, thinking about you and the kids today, (know you will read back) hope you get your lappy fixed, Hope Monday goes just how you planned, I am sure it will, you have always done daz proud and just know the funeral on Monday will be no different, get that lappy fixed asap, just know from monday eve you are gonna need your chickies support and mate you have it !!, no lappy i will phone/text
Rooster nicking your idea now, but feathered friends old and new, reckons we should hold a minutes silence monday morning at 11am (Uk time) in memory of Daz and support for MHM, on the day she lays him to rest so sure you will all agree ......................xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Neigh in Spain, me in Portugal, Charles in oz, chikky Donut in USA all Mels buddys./chikkies/roosters ......lets do this..........xxxxxx
MHM will text you tomorrow on the eve, love you and all buds dearly Buckets of love Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
some more bad news i'm afraid: mel has asked me to tell you all she recieved a text from helly (helen m), unfortunately she lost her darling hubby keith on the 26th october, i know we will all also keep helly and her family in our thoughts.
Helly, if you do come here, please see and accept my most sincere condolences at the passing of your Keith. I know from our many conversations that this will be a difficult time for you, I cannot make him come back but can send you love and a (((((((((((((((((((((( hug ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
