Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Dear Mel.... Like all your chickies on here always here to support you and give back what you have given night and day to all of us eh? baby chick not too bad though not going back to college later today as planned (too much to soon) Much love to you, Kirsty and Daley xxxxxxxxxx
Hi Karen hun how's things? bloody Arsenal eh? might have to change teams next season lol!! no chance, there's still time....today was horrible though think sis been eating humble pie!! love and hugs xxxxxxx
Hope you've had a good weekend and hope you, Richard, Gemma and Nathan are ok? do you really have marking by the lorry load?? pass it round to fellow chickies and we'll get it done in no time, love and hugs to all Teresa xxxxxxx
